22/02

Hello, Blogger. It's kind of sad I got you only to do updates, but well, it is what it is. I'm dating someone. Finally. I finally liked someone that likes me back. It's weird, isn't it? But right now I'm sad. I'm surprised how much these things can get you up and down. I was incredibly happy the first week (and I still am if I can be honest), this guy gets me so high it feels wrong. Sometimes it feels like cheating how easy things are with him. How free and crystal clear I've gotten to feel. It's like therapeutic. Being with him is therapeutic. Kissing him is discovering things about me I didn't know. I don't feel disgusted anymore. I'm drunk in love. And it feels wrong. I have gotten in so many arguments with myself. I've been trying to bring myself down. I like loneliness maybe way too much? Now the sad part is that I apparently have been neglecting my friends and I'm just frustrated I don't seem to know how to manage boty things, and I'm upset. Pretty upset. I may say things I don't mean. I'm too visceral right now. And this post just suddenly became a mess.