21/9

 The thing is I feel like a bother. Wow, here again so soon? Unappreciated, so original. But I guess that's the truth. I have been writing songs since 2014, successfully probably since 2016. And not even my mom has ever asked me to play any to her. I just grabbed my grandpa's guitar, on a rush of blood to the head, and told him I'd play him a song I wrote, and my grandma kept interrupting me singing other songs and my grandpa wasn't even paying attention. How's that supposed to make me feel? Not even my friends ask me to play my songs, not even the one that was my boyfriend. Do they suck? Probably. I know I'm the only one who likes them. Some of my friends try to sound nice, except from that time they told me all my songs sound like church songs and I stopped writing, singing and playing for a while, and ok, I can't take criticism. But hey! that's because no one has ever sit to listen to me and say something. After I digested the "church songs" thing I actually started to try to improve, see? That was good. But since then, nothing much has changed. Even my mom mocks me and my songs. Once I played in front of one of my best friends and what they did? They started to get distracted with something else or to speak! And ok, I'm a dramatic untalented piece of shit, fine! But say something! Ask something! Tell to stop OR SOMETHING! *Sigh* Ok. I think I let all that out. That's why I never offer to play anything... Because I know nobody wants me to. And I guess that's fine, my songs would keep being my songs. And only mine. Sorry for being such a dramatic bitch.