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 I kissed him a lot, but at the same time, i just simply didn't kiss him enough. 

And under that statement, i write this post. As Taylor Swift once, very eloquently, said: I did something bad, but (catdamnit) it felt so good. Embrace yourself Blogger, we didn't just hit 2022, we're back again in 2012. Because i think i might had fallen back in love with my ex. The one i made so many corny entries back in the day. 

So, he just leaves (again) to a very farther away country, in like two days. And, it's the beginning of a new year, so nothing is written in stone and this would probably go away since we're the worst people to get in touch via text. But i just wanted to write it down. I feel like i didn't kiss him enough. And it makes sense, i only saw him for like two days, and in only one we got into work. He feels like home. And that's so weird. I feel like as i'm having this new feelings and thoughts i'm just like studying myself. What are this feelings? What do they mean to the being? What is the being supposed to do with this feelings? Are the feelings of the being real? 

Am i broken again? I'm finally starting the life i wanted and now i'm questioning. He ain't joking when he asks me to go to the same country he's in. He truly -still- loves me. And i don't know what to do with that. All i know is that i didn't kiss him enough.